Wednesday, 3 July 2013

Back to basics......



......So......

....many of you, who follow me on Instagram too, have noticed that I have said goodbye to my account. 

It's been on the cards for a while, I have toyed with the idea of saying goodbye. I adore taking photos. I'm not terribly good at it, but I love it all the same. That is what has kept me on there. I've also met some wonderful people.



This recent bout of restlessness has made me realise that I need to slow down and rediscover who I am. I've been waking up recently and not even knowing myself. I mean, in the sense that, I just think i've lost sight of who I am deep down. It's pretty much the hardest thing to describe actually and i'm struggling to get it down on this virtual paper. What I am on here, on this blog, IS me. I'm not trying to pretend to be something i'm not. Admittedly, I only share the 'better' bits. I don't want a warts and all blog that shows me at my worst first thing in the mornings, or all the washing piles, or grubby finger marks. That is the 'con' of being selective on ones blog, people thinking your life is perfect. I would hope that most would realise why the pretty stuff is on here, but there are many, i'm sure, that think my life is like this 24/7.



If you were to ever meet me in real life, i'm sure i'd be a terrible let down. I'm the most terribly shy person you were to ever meet. I still get freaked out sometimes when I think of being on here.  I have received the most wonderful emails from people during my blogging time. They have really blown me away with their kind words, but, I am always left thinking....'are they actually talking about me?'. I'm nothing special, little old me. I love what I love, I love to make what I make, but it's not brilliant......i'm not brilliant. I still find it somewhat hard to believe that people read what I have to say and like what pictures I take. I still don't get it. I don't understand why people would take 5 minutes out of their day to take a dip into my world, but am always humbled when people take the time to say that they look forward to a post. You strange lot!



But, as much as I enjoy 'virtually' connecting with other people on here, essentially, this blog was started for myself and to please me, not anyone else. I needed to escape the dull and the mundane, and remind myself that when I am snowed under with washing piles, dirty dishes, and bears who think I am the worst person in the world, there is still pretty and sunshine in my life. It was a way of remembering this and reminding myself that, although, it never, ever, felt like it.......I did actually manage to achieve something every month.



I am real. I don't have a perfect life. I am constantly striving to be everything to everyone....and often failing miserably. There are never enough hours in the day. I started this blog at a time in my life when I was drowning. It was my saviour, and I owe it a lot.



But I feel as though i've lost my way a bit. 



Technology is such a wonderful thing and it can be terribly inspiring, but I feel as though it's influencing me too much. When I worked in a shop, day in and day out, you would start to get obsessed with new stock arriving. When you were in the bubble you didn't see it and you rode the waves with all the others and bought stuff. Step out of the bubble and you wonder why the hell you got  so excited about stuff. If I didn't work there, it wouldn't be the shop i'd shop in by choice. The clothes weren't made for people like me, nothing fitted right and the clothes didn't really express the 'real' me. I stepped away from it and started to be more how I wanted to be rather than being swept away in the bubble. It felt so good to think that I was becoming 'me' again.



I'm conscious i'm rambling and nothing is making sense, but I guess what i'm trying to say is, the internet is doing the same thing to me. I'm sweeping along with it and i'm forgetting what makes ME tick. I desperately want to spend a bit of time finding 'me' again. Not feeling influenced, not feeling pressured, just slowing down and remembering what it is that I love with a passion, what I need in my life that will give me a sense of self calm.



So, I guess what I'm saying is I will be away for a while. I don't know how long. I have had so many conversations with myself as to whether this little corner of blogging land has run its course. It may well have done. I don't want to be hasty, but I need time away from technology to be me again for a bit. 



I hope you all understand.

I really am fine. 

No massive dramas. 



I think as I am approaching a new decade in my life, it just has really got me thinking how I am wanting the next decade to be. I just want to start it, feeling like i've come back to myself. I think that would be the greatest birthday gift I could give to myself.



If you've managed to get to the end of this........brownie points to you! Sorry for the rambling. It's hard to express. I hope I made a little sense.



xxx

79 comments:

  1. I recognize a lot in what you say...
    Have a great time exploring yourself, I will miss your postst...so I hope you will get back, but if you don't...good luck and all the best to you...

    xxx

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  2. Oh yes, enjoy discovering who you are. I have enjoyed your words so much, they have enriched my life but, if you have no more words, so be it.

    Be at peace. Hugs. x

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  3. This is something I have thought a lot about too. I admire you for deciding to take a break. I hope that it gives you a chance to enjoy life in other ways.

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  4. It's not often I comment here. I'm more of a lurker I'm afraid :"> I totally understand where you're coming from. The online world can be a wonderful thing. You connect with people who are on the same wavelength as you, who share the same passions and it doesn't matter if they live on the other side of the world to you.

    However, sometimes it does get very overwhelming and we do need to disconnect every now and then. I do quite often. I hang around on the edges every now and then till I'm re-energised enough to dive back in.

    It's very easy to lose sight of who we really are with so many outside influences filtering through; almost like osmosis. Like you, I'm about to embark on a new decade and it does get me thinking how I want to spend the next 10 years. I think it's just a natural process. I'm completely different to when I was in my 20s, 30s. In a few month's time I'll hit my 50s and I know again I will change. It'll be gradual but it will happen.

    Life is a series of chapters. I've enjoyed reading your blog immensely. I hope you'll pop back but if not, I wish you every happiness on your new journey.

    xXx

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  5. Life is continually changing and part of the process is evaluating if what we are doing is working for us. If blogging isn't working for you at the moment then a break away sounds like a wonderful idea. We will of course miss your lovely posts but far better you rediscover who you are and be enjoying life than doing something that is becoming a chore.
    Take care and have fun,
    Anne xx

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  6. Well done, I think I might join you. I have recently read a fantastic book called The Happiness Trap and I am writing a personal values statement from it, realising within that, more and more, that I am losing myself online/in information, who 'I' am, following other people's stuff...friends with people on FB I lost touch with for a reason... endless...even buying books & magazines... maybe three boys does it! I need to get back to me. Good luck and thank you x

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  7. Hi Dear, I can relate a lot to what your saying and feeling right now. I do believe we allow many things to get the best of us sometimes. We have our family's and jobs that we tackle on a daily basis, they alone can occupy so much of our time. Our crafts and blogs are the places we go to escape and relax, where we go to share our accomplishments, knowledge, goals and etc. I too have thought about starting up a blog of my own, but what I have noticed with so many that have a blog...is that it's no longer a place of retreat or enjoyment! It has now become a place of obligation, commitment and or a duty!Don't let it consume you! "GO"...enjoy life, find yourself, drop in when "YOU'RE" ready!!! Not because you feel that you have to. Those of us that enjoy, like, and love you...We'll be here!!! Enjoy your exploration my friend, best wishes to you...always!♥ XXX

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  8. Bravo! I think most of us can relate. It has saddened me to see how many inspiring bloggers have abandoned their blogs in favor of instagram and facebook. It's because they got buried in all things media and opted for the quick and easy. I MUCH prefer blogs. They're prettier. A bit slower yes, but they convey so much more information. They are much more who we really are.

    Your blog is so inspirational. I hope you'll have a refreshing break and opt to return.

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  9. I understand exactly what you mean ... and I feel identified with your words ... Internet is good stuff but I think all that we have a blog we have a bit absorbed... a break is always good! And you made ​​me very happy with the beautiful things you showed us. We all have mountains of laundry, dishes to wash, the work at home for ... blogs make us feel beautiful emotions to escape all this world nothing rewarding ... the chores are hard ... yes ...
    And you with your words makes us think ... thanks for sharing these feelings so deep ... I wish him the best thing for you and your family.
    If you return a day I will waiting you!
    Kisses and a big hug from Catalonia!

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  10. My dear, just stay true to yourself, that is all that really matters in life..do what gives you joy when you can.
    xo

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  11. Live who you are.... love yourself...Cx

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  12. O mais importante é sermos "nós mesmos".
    Gostarmos e fazermos o que queremos e não aquilo que achamos que os outros acham que seria o correto.
    A vida não é perfeita,e não é por termos um blog que temos de mostrar sempre e tudo o que fazemos. Quando o mostramos deve ser por prazer, para tentar inspirar mais alguém.

    Um Beijo
    Até um dia destes

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  13. This post strikes a note with me, and I think you've managed to express it so well. I too feel bogged down by it all sometimes and wonder what inspires me and why. I'm so glad you've found a way to simplify daily life, and this must be a huge weight off your mind and schedule. Thank you for all your beautiful words, uplifting imagery and endless inspiration. You have my email so please stay in touch, if you ever feel like it. Lots of love and cyber hugs xxx

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  14. i can identify with this soooooo much! Ive only recently starting blogging and i feel as though im trying to run with certain crowds and not just be "me"...sometimes, with so many other influences around us (virtually and physically) we can get swept away with OTHERS favourites/ideas/inspiration, and we forget, or dont realises, what are our own!
    I hope the time you take will be fruitful and i, for one, look forward to your (hopeful) return x Helen x

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  15. Your blog is wonderful and that is reflected by the amount of lovely followers yo have who regularly 'tune in'. Take time for yourself, be yourself, but please come back! (Only f yo want to, of course)'but you'll be very sadly missed xxx

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  16. Love your blig but completelt know where your coming from there arent enough hours in the day. Laptops mobiles etc take you away from real life where you find yourself in.the same room as your children.on the phone or laptop on.the internet its crazy. So I hear you loud and clear :-)

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  17. Oh V, your post has brought tears to my eyes.

    I think we are both singing from a similar song sheet only I have opted for a different path.

    Can I be honest with you? I've often worried a little about you. Worried is perhaps the wrong word; thought about you. You see, you've become a bit of a trend setter and almost icon. As your pictures have gotten more beautiful and your creations more exquisite, so your following and popularity have grown. Anyone who knows you a little, knows you are actually so unassuming and retiring. This mantle of yours must be such a huge pressure. For that reason I am not surprised and actually glad and relieved for you.

    On a selfish note, I do hope you pop by from time to time. You were one of my very first bloggy friends over three and a half years ago and I'll miss you.

    Most importantly though, do look after your little self. You know where I am if you ever need me.

    Hxxx

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  18. Wishing you happiness. Thanks for sharing what you have done. xx

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  19. All the very best to you,hope you find you,look forward to hopefully seeing you again when your ready.

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  20. I totally get it! You make perfect sense to me, and I hope you find the 'you' you need to be again xx

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  21. It all makes perfect sense, enjoy your time out, your family, your home and all the important things in life.
    I feel like when I first started my blogging journey you helped me on my way.. I hope our paths will cross again but for now I'm wishing you lots of happiness x x x x x x x

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  22. I go through the same thoughts so often! I feel unfulfilled, find something to get caught up in and excited about that I think will "complete me" and then it wears off and I'm back to square one...i think stepping away from technology, even for a day, could be the perfect way to iron out thoughts and really get to know myself again. Thank you :)

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  23. Thats why we all need Jesus....He is the only one who can fullfil you...
    If you want to talk with a girl that has been trough the same things...just mail me..(theareedeker at gmail dot com)If not (it's OK..) i'm sending a prayer as we speak.....Love Theetje

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  24. I wish you the very best for your future, catching up with yourself and just being YOU!
    Thank you for being so candid and if it's right for you then I hope to see you back in blogland one day! I've really enjoyed your wonderful posts, thank you!
    Joy x

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  25. Wise words, we can all take a little something from what you've said xxx

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  26. I really agree with Heather aka Pink Milk. It must actually be quite overwhelming to have so many followers and I think you are definitely a trendsetter. I also get the sense it could be a bit much sometimes. I've wondered sometimes if that may have been the reason Posy stopped blogging.
    When I found your blog I read page after page and it was like a lovely dreamworld. You have a lovely eye and a talent for making things look gorgeous and for creating lovely things. But you don't owe anyone anything. Do what makes you happiest.
    Blogging and instagram are a lovely world, but they can almost make you forget the world, if that makes sense. I think sometimes deep down on instagram I am not merely sharing my likes, but seeking approval in a funny sort of way.
    We have to enjoy ourselves and take what we can from life. That means different things to different people. Just be you and be happy if you can. It really is the most important thing. Lots of love to you.
    Tracy xxx

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  27. I shall miss you but completely understand. Enjoy your rest. There is no rush in finding "what next?". Love and hugs to you. Philippa xx

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  28. Wishing you lots of happiness and hope you will find yourself, again. I completely understand why you need to take a break, sometimes technology, takes over a lives, a little bit, though you will be missed. Great quote, we should all live our lives like that. Look after yourself. Deb x

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  29. I'm sad to ear that you're not ok :(
    Get well soone, and get back to the blog soone with your lovely photos and crochet.
    Thank you for every thing.

    Cat*

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  30. I think your post will strike a chord with many of us, lots of us busy with real life families and work...you do tend to lose track of just being you.
    It would be a shame for you to stop blogging for you, why not make it private so that only you can see it? That way you get to keep making the memories, sharing them with yourself.
    Hoping you find a solution that makes you smile, enjoy the holidays with your bears
    all the best
    Nicky
    x

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  31. I have not long ago found your blog and have enjoyed reading and sharing your pics and words. I will miss you and your blog, but understand why you are doing what you are.
    Hopefully we will see you again, even if it is just to pop back once in awhile.
    Take care
    Sally x

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  32. I've read your wonderful blog for quite some time now and always had a sense that, like me, you have stories which are, as I put it...another story for another time...it can be easy to fall down Alice's Rabbit Hole into the Wonderland of t'internet, but sometimes, you have to take a step back. Thank you for sharing all that you have and I hope you have a wonderful and exciting time finding which way the next part of your journey takes you. If it doesn't come back this way, you will be missed, but it'll be right for you, and that is always the most important thing of all. hugs x

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  33. I completely understand your feelings of restlessness. I think in a world now where so much of it is on show to so many people, and everyone seems to be so much themselves, it can be a little frightening/sad/depressing to think everyone has a better grasp on their lives than you do. But that is never the case. That does not mean you should not strive to find yourself and improve the way you feel, I just want to point out (from my own experience that you are probably doing a much better job and are more in touch with the real you, than most people out there). I understand your need to step away, and just want to thank you for sharing so much so far. Your photos are truly inspirational. I don't blog myself; I only have pc access at work (whoops - what should I be doing instead, I wonder?) and I am a bit of blog lurker - too shy to start up my own blog (on company time...)and I couldn't take a decent photo if my life depended on it; but I love looking at what other people have managed to cram into busy lives and on occasion have been shifted into gear by looking at your wonderful creations, so many thanks for that. I think we all know that nobody else's lives are perfect either, but we all need a spot of "pretty" and a couple of "ooh - how lovely!" moments in our daily lives, which you have provided on a regular basis, so thanks for that too. Finally, your frankness in admitting that life is not always as expected, helps remind us that it's the same for everyone. So I hope you do find yourself, that you enjoy the journey, that you will come back (if you want to) and remember never sweat the small stuff and all stuff is small stuff. M xx

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  34. I really loves your blog. Have been followed you
    for years, but I wish you happiness and good health.
    I hope you will come back, but I understand...I have
    not been healthy for years, so i see your problems.
    But I will miss your colours, crocheting and photos!

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  35. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. I've thoroughly enjoyed reading your blogs and always look forward to the next one. Good luck with what you decide to do, all the very best to you and your family. Xxx.

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  36. Hmmmm, you have just said everything I have been saying to myself for months now...I very much get where you are coming from. You will be missed but good on you for taking charge of the next chapter of your life. I wish you much happiness and peace in the future xxx

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  37. Think it's the weather that doesn't always help....the ups and downs of a busy life, I don't even work but I never find time to finish the housework....kids come home...boom...mess...dinner...pack lunches...tidy...bed - only to start all over again! I, too, look at other mums and think how do they manage to work and still are able to get things do to a better standard than me! But, then I think my life is not comparable to theirs... We all have different problems/issues...Mine are a pre menstrual daughter and 2 gorgeous sons of which 1 is autistic...who comes with lots of health problems! I think why me ... why him?
    Anyways, what I am trying to say is we all feel like you in various measures! - Of all the blogs I follow, it is yours that I love the most...the colours... the neatness... damn right beautiful!
    Take care
    xx

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  38. hugs - time for yourself is the best treat xxx

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  39. Ya know? Sometimes you just have to take a break. But do soooooo hope you will pop in now and then and show us what your doing and making in your pretty world. :)

    ~Liz

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  40. I was sad to see your IG was deleted, I loved your daily dose of pretty, I like to see the pretty, so I forget all mess and washing and the fights with children.
    I get what you are saying, I am terribly shy too, the internet enables us shy people to be able to interact on a different level, without all the anxiety. It is a nice feeling, but some days I do step away from IG and the interwebs, it is just necessary. Luckily, my sewing and creating gives me an enormous sense of who I am, it is so calming and grounding.
    I hope you can find your place. Enjoy searching. Cat from Raspberry Rainbow xox

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  41. Just wanted to wish you all the best, Pam

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  42. Enjoy your bit of space & time. I frequently take a break from my blog - when things are getting a bit - well just a bit too much. I've left my job this summer and have been taking lots and lots of time to rediscover who I am and what I love to do. It's going fine and I love not 'waiting for the new stock' - I know eactly what you mean. Hope you pop back to show us what you've been creating - start with small steps and good luck!

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  43. Hi Vanessa. Couldn't let you go without saying 'au revoir'. I think you've struck a chord with a lot of us on here. I stepped away from blogging for a while. I started to feel confused about my desire to be honest on my blog. I felt an obligation to not paint an unrealistic picture of a perfect life, to be honest about suffering from depression, but sometimes wondered if it was ok to wash my dirty laundry in public. I've always admired your blend of beauty and vulnerability and I'm hoping that after a break you will find, as I did, that you can see your blogging path more clearly. Have a lovely break xxxxx

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  44. Big hugs coco rose. Hope to see you around again soon. Enjoy your time xxxx
    Lissylou xx

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  45. Oh V. As you know, I am so sorry to see you go from IG. This post makes so much sense. Life is short and you must do what is right for you. I have deleted my blog recently but I wanted to pop over and tell you what you have meant to me. As Heather has also said, you were one of my first blog friends (and I usually say that term I inverted commas) and have been a constant source of inspiration and support for me and my crafting. You are liked and admired by so many people but I know that you are not comfortable with too much attention. It must be a double edged sword. I hope that you know that you've made some genuine friends through doing this, as have I, and that you have inspired so many people with your talent, warmth and honesty. I hope we can keep in touch. Lots of love, gorgeous. Xxxxxxx

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  46. * Breath * Simplify * Turn it all off * Refresh * Simplify * Breath * Repeat *

    Sometimes.. too much is just too much!

    Listen to your heart..it always has the right answers!
    Wishing you all the best, penny x

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  47. It looks like a lot of people (including me) are identifying with you in a BIG way. Good for you for seeing what you may need to do for yourself.
    When I read the "Brownie Points to you" for reaching the end, I teared up a bit. Apparently, I needed some brownie points today.
    Thank you for the brownie points and thank you for allowing me to join in your pretty corner of the internet for a while.

    GO BE FREE!

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  48. Live, Love and Laugh....as life is short.
    Will miss you,
    A Friend in CT, USA

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  49. for the time you are away I am going to miss you and I can but hope you will be back.Thank you for sharing so very much even if you don't fully realize it your blog and thoughts have inspired me to look inwards.

    keep well


    Amanda :-)

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  50. Good luck on your quest! This summer i m finally gonna start om the japanese scarf, witch i found on your blog. Thanks for that one, already having fun for the intentions of working on it!

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  51. hi my sweet x you know i wanted to be a part of instagram and then when i did i suddenly felt 'sad', sad maybe that my life doesnt live up to everyone else's or just sad that i was constantly trying to share just the 'nice' photos on there but actually inside not feeling so hunky-dory!...my blogging has slowed down and ive also had the same conversation with myself like you have about instagram and blogging~ is it something i want to carry on with...like you, im really not sure.
    I guess i blogged when i was a stay at home mother with a young child and seeking a little bit of escape and joy in my blog, but now my daughters older and busy trying to get full time work and applications just seem to fill my days, i hardly have time for blog life or catching up with bloggy chums and posts ( i miss that part most!)... im in a bit of a cross roads in life, a bit lost in myself. i hardly know me anymore and that spark of blogging and sharing my life has been missing for some time...i just dont feel i have anything worth sharing, i guess im a bit down and need to re-charge my batteries and sort myself out a bit...i think like you instagram just didnt seem to fit with me very well but i did enjoy everyone elses pics. lifes a funny old thing and i guess we all need to step back, take a deep breath and re-think things and find a happy medium...think i need to just get my life back-on-track.
    i do get where you're coming from... and i send you big huggles xxxxxx

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  52. I just found your blog through someone recommending it on twitter, and just wanted to say that it is gorgeous and you are very clever and I wish you all the best

    :)

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  54. I almost didn't want to leave a comment so that you didn't have yet another email in your inbox to deal with! But I really, really wanted to say a huge thank you for all the stunning, colourful inspiration you have given me over the years. You were one of the first blogs I ever discovered and I have loved visiting ever since. I never thought I would love pastels but after seeing your beautiful photos over the years, I have now surrounded myself in prettiness. So for that I thank you. You have made my life more cheerful - especially over the last year when everything else feels like it is falling to bits!! So amongst all the mundane daily chores, the pile of washing waiting to be folded and the vacuuming that is being avoided (if you're anything like me) - please know that you have made a difference - a big one!!

    Take care hon.
    Leah
    xxxx

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  55. you have a great blog ^ ^
    you want to follow each other?
    follow me and let me know with a comment
    and follow you too :))


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  56. You may not feel that you are "anything special". But you are! I have and will in the future check in. I love your photography...you have such a way with your vignettes. As good as anything in a magazine, maybe even better! They are SO pretty and have ALWAYS made me smile-so thank you for that. Take all the time you need. But I just wanted to thank you for keeping it real and sharing..... Oh and for the beautiful photos. Good Luck.

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  57. Hello, I've been very much a silent visitor to this blog for a while now. I just want to let you know that your photographs and your work are both beautiful. Thank you for sharing these little peeks into your life with us. I hope that one day we see you return, but I completely understand the feeling of wanting to get 'back to basics'. I wish you the best of luck with where your life takes you next :)

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  59. Thank you for your lovely, pretty blog Vanessa - you will be missed. Enjoy your voyage of discovery, but please know that you really are brilliant - your blog is the most beautiful one I have ever come across. Warmest wishes, Rebecca McD <3

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  61. I discovered your blog last year at a difficult time in my life. I read it from the very beginning. I was fascinated and very much uplifted by your entries. I was always checking for the next one. It was as exciting as reading my own copy of Country Living. Nobody's life is perfect, but if we didn't sometimes do a bit of day dreaming and editing of our memories, we'd all go mad. I do other crafts such as sewing, knitting, mosaics etc. Crochet up until now has eluded me, but you have inspired me to learn. I wish you all the best on your journey, hope you are able to return in the not too distant future, even if you don't good luck and good wishes in all that you do. Love and hugs. Ann xx

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  62. Pretty photos...I like the embrodiery "Sunshine" framed in Pink...so Cute!!
    Daisy~

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  63. I think we're all looking for something else, some of us just aren't brave enough to say it....Hope you find what you're looking for, I'm sure you will. Warmest wishes, Vicki

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  64. I've mostly been a lurker on your blog, since about this time last year. I just saw this post now. I understand how you're feeling. I have recently decided to severely curtail my time on Facebook for similar reasons. It just isn't fun anymore, especially as things come to light about people who aren't necessarily honest about themselves. I love blogging, but I haven't been at it all that long. I just wanted to say that you inspire me a lot and that I hope you have a nice break away from it all. If you do choose to come back, I'll still be here. I wish you all the best.

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  65. Just read this. I've been a follower of yours for a while now. I think we all been there and we all know what you're on about. Many blogs seem sooo picture perfect, but in fact, aren't we all just human. I started blogging too when I was at a difficult point in my life, completely lost and on the verge of a breakdown. It was either blogging or going to a shrink. I decided on the blog. Remember: you are in control and you decide what to do with your blog and what to show.

    I hope you're enjoying summer as I type this and are having fun with your family. If you decide to come back, I'll be here with cappuccino.
    Esther.

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  66. Just stumbled across your blog and this post had me in tears. Good tears, I think. Thank you xx

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  67. I understand completely!I also feel like sometimes I'm running behind myself...wanted to please erveryone in blogland,on my work,in private,friends,family,etc. and the days are to short for all of this,so I don't know how long I can keep this all,sometimes it feels rushed...Take care of yourself no matter what you do or what you decide,only do what's the best for YOU!

    grtzzz
    Angeline

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  68. I feel like a bit of me has torn away knowing I can't see anymore snippets into your crafty pursuits and lovely home. That does sound incredibly selfish! Reading your blog was my way of escaping....I am a teacher and seldom have time to crochet as much as I would sometimes like. I tried to start a blog....it never went very far! And when it is the long summer holidays, I have 2 boys which leave very little "me" time. I can understand though that blogging puts enormous pressure on you and as one of your reader's commented...you have some kind of icon status and possibly a " look" which you feel compelled to show which must become very tiring and draining. I will miss you on bogland and I sincerely hope that you find peace with who and what and whom you are and do. I am a similar age to you (I think) and it may well also be partly down to that too. My very heartfelt good wishes to you, Vanessa.

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  69. I just discovered you and hope you come back sometime soon. I truly understand what you are saying! I think it is good to 'unplug' but remember, that this is one of the best ways to 'cast your bread upon the waters' and see what returns to you and feeds others! When life is over, I think it is important to know we have giving to others the gift of who we are and what we have to share! ♥♥♥

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  70. I totally understand how you are feeling. I, too, am also going through the process of redesigning my blog and my life. I deleted my Tumblr account, as I felt like it was taking up so much of my life. I love your blog so much, it is a huge inspiration, but if you choose to call it a day, I will understand. I hope you enjoy a well deserved break and that inspiration finds you soon.

    Much love.
    Jéanne. (Mum To A Meezer!) :)

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  71. Oh I will miss your posts very much because your blog always was one of my favorites, but I totally understand. Wishing you all the best, enjoy your life and if you'd come back to blogland someday I'll be happy to read you again :-)). Thanks for everything you shared!!
    xxx Nata

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  72. i miss you beautiful...but hope your having a great summer hol xxxxxx

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  73. I hear what you are saying. We go through seasons....
    I need to slow down tremendously. I'm a beekeeper with 12 hives and my husband and I are building our own house...not having it built, but building it ourselves. Not to mention everything else in life going on. I've quit all of my summer commitments and decided to only start up in the fall with the ones I really missed. I do love your blog and you are special. Your pictures are beautiful and very inspiring. Please, if you decide not to blog anymore, please leave your blog up so we can go to it for positive inspiration. You are right, we all go through the "warts" but it's not fun reading about the stuff. We need the 'good stuff' amidst the everyday! I do hope you return...

    Cindy Bee

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  74. Hai Vanessa,
    I just wanted to say that I miss your beautiful way you show us your world. Take your time and hopefully till soon.
    Love, saskia
    (Saar en Mien)

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  75. Nice to know there are young people like you out there. All's not lost then. ;-)
    Stay you,
    Martina (51)

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  76. helloooooo lovely, i hope you've had a really happy summer my beautifuls xxxxxx
    when i saw your little message on pinterest i was all giddy happy, miss you xxxxxx

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  77. hello beautiful, Just sending a hello from me, as it's been a long time since I've blogged, I think I win for leaving it longer! hehe, but I am using an excuse that I have been mega busy and since IG has come along, Blogging seems a little more effort. I miss you virtually and in real life, And can't wait to see you again beautiful, Big hugs for now, Becca xxxx

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  78. Dear Coco,

    Just want to let you know that I understand. Hope you will find yourself and be happy!

    Lots of love,

    Madelief xox

    * will miss you *

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