Monday, 14 December 2015

Privileged.....


















 I was driving very early this morning. It wasn't a usual thing for me to do, and the morning still felt like it hadn't quite risen from its slumber.

I have been listening all week to Ludovico Einaudi's 'Elements' album. I ADORE strings and Piano and I was playing 'Night' in the car. It seemed so fitting of the surroundings at that very moment.

Do you ever get it, when all things come together to reach one point; that you know is a significant moment to you? I'm not really so sure I can eloquently express this very well, as it's more a feeling than any spoken word can describe.

Anyway, driving through the countryside still so sleepy, with a hint of the sunrise....it felt quite ethereal. But mostly, I just felt this overwhelming surge of utter privilege. To have all my senses upon me. To be able to witness the sunrise and the sunset. To be able to feel the chill on my hands, and the sun on my face. To have the love stare back at me though my children's eyes. To breathe the morning air, sit quietly on a bench and watch the world go by, jump and sing like a loon in my house, run on a beach, cry at a sad film, watch deer jump through fields. I just felt what an awesome gift to have.







I think I have been thinking a lot this past week of people in my life who have passed. I miss them, and I miss that they don't get to see these moments that I see and feel. We forget sometimes in the hustle and bustle of life, just what we have, just how spectacular it all is.....and just what a privilege it is.


xxx

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  1. I may know a bit what you say...sometimes I have those moments when it all seems almost magical in some way.
    Like you have have been thinking a lot about loved ones that are no longer here and wich I miss soo much....at the same time Life it self is such a big gift and I guess all we can do is make the best of it all and be kind and loving to our loved ones but also try to do some good in the World to....
    Sometimes we have to remind ourselfs what a gift it all is!
    Have a Beautiful day Vanessa!/ Jeanette

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    1. They certainly feel quite magical Jeanette. I felt all weird in myself, like this enormous glow. x

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  2. I think you are right, Vanessa... we tend not to remember and value what we have, and how privileged we are.
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    Your blog is an inspiration. I shall miss you, but I understand your need. Wish you all the very best!

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  3. So beautifully put Vanessa and so so true your words have moved me to tears
    Vanessa Arran
    XXX

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    1. It has been a weird day Vanessa. A heightened state of emotions, but positive and beautiful. I cannot describe it really. x

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  4. And all of those people would be glad to know that you remember them, think of them and capture a magical moment when the world is at peace. I lost my husband just over a year ago and I miss him dreadfully but I absolutely know that he'd want me to be peaceful and appreciate beauty in the world - and laugh, create, sew, move forward and reach for the light. Wishing you many more magical moments. I shall miss your blog next year. Do come and say Hello if you're close to Alton in the Springtime. Ax

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    1. I think it's that too. Knowing someone so well, and knowing, that although they have passed, they would want you to live live beautifully. Wishing you many magical moments also my lovely xxxx

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  5. it's a precious gift to be able to see the beauty in our daily life. Not everyone can do that. You do ! And me too and it makes life a lot easier for me ;)

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    1. I have had to work at it, but I appreciate it's affect on me, and I realise there is so much beauty in the everyday and on this earth. x

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  6. You're right We take things fro granted. Lovely words and very touching too.
    http://soldenochedecocrochet.blogspot.com.ar/

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    1. It's lovely to stop once in a while and just see how lovely everything can be. There is so much pain and negativity, but there is also so much beauty x

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  7. Such a beautiful post, pictures and words. Through your eyes and words and pictures the world is quite beautiful. I will miss that when you go. Thank you so much for sharing your world. Xo

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  8. It is so easy to take things for granted, we all do it. Times like these are quite special, just taking that moment to stop and think about it all, to look at what you have and appreciate life and all that it is, yet at the same time look back and remember those we have lost, however a part of them will always remain with us even if we no longer see them x x x

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    1. Oh yes Gem. I think loved ones gone, can be with you forever. x

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  9. Yes, I get it. two friends lost their mums this year and it has been hard. I lost mine many years ago and my father years before that. My hub lost both parents (within 3 mths) last year. There is so much to appreciate and be grateful for. But, still, life in general can be difficult and it is a strain to appreciate the simple beauty in life.
    Thank you for the name of this composer, I have been searching for it since hearing his music on the radio. The announcer whips through the name as if we all 'know' it, sigh. So thank you and will be buying this asap.
    I will miss your blog posts. Have a great Christmas and a Happy New Year. x

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    1. I'm a natural 'glass half empty' 'gal and I had to make a real effort into always trying to cancel out a negative in the day with a positive. It really has helped to level me out though and not get bogged down. Life isn't a barrel of roses, but there really is so much beauty to be reminded of. Ludovico Einaudi is used a lot by the BBC on television programmes. I just love the soothing quality of the music. Have a beautiful Christmas and New Year also! x

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  10. Love this! Enjoying the little moments life gives us and being in a state of gratitude. I believe that's who we are at the core of our human experience.

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  11. Those special moments that you are describing are the very ones that need to be savored by you. For myself, I find that I often go back and think of those moments when things get a little hectic or seemingly out of control. Calms me.

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    1. Oh yes, you are so right. This moment was very profound for me. It gave me the weirdest feeling to describe but it was a beautiful, and peaceful one. x

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  12. Oh so beautifully and eloquently put.
    Much Love, Jude
    sunflowers and tulips

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    1. Awe thanks Jude. x

      p.s I hope the email finally reached you! x

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  13. Truer words...Being in the moment, sadly seems to elude us humans most of the time. Being thankful, thanks for the reminder.

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    1. There is so much to be thankful for isn't there? We live in this world now where we are bombarded with negativity so much. To stop and remind ourselves of the beauty of so much shouldn't be so hard. x

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  14. Thank you Vanessa... your corner of the blog world will certainly be missed. I had no idea who Ludovico Einaudi was until just now.... I now have him playing in the background - a heartfelt thank you for that gift. And you're right... a little bit of gratitude can go a very long way... There is so much everyday to be thankful for... even things as daily as sunrises and sunsets. I feel like so much peace has been added to my day.... thank you.

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    1. Ludovico Einaudi....ahhhhhhhhh. His music is incredibly soothing and beautiful. Oh yes, so much beauty in a sunrise and a sunset. We just forget to see it x

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  15. Thank you for this post. I do agree with you about this time of the year bringing many contemplative thoughts to the surface.

    xo

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    1. Yes, I think this time of year has that affect doesn't it? x

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  16. A beautifully thoughtful post Vanessa. I only heard of Einaudi earlier this year, if I'm vey good, Santa may bring me 'Elements'.
    Arrgghh, the more you post, the more I realise how much I will miss you! xx

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    1. Awe thanks lovely! I'll still be on flickr bothering you! x

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  17. Thank you so much - that is EXACTLY what I needed this morning! Cheryl

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    1. Awe thank you Cheryl. Have a super rest of a day my lovely x

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  18. I was touched by your post but knew exactly what you were trying to convey. It sometimes unnerves me when I am so moved by all the elements coming together. One of my sons served in the British Army in Afghanistan, he came home a very different son (still loved beyond words, though) and after a period of time decided at the age of 29 to learn to play the piano. The composer you mentioned was his inspiration. He can now play, hesitantly, some of his pieces and the process has helped his healing beyond words.
    Wishing you a peaceful, contented Christmas, Pamela.

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    1. Oh my Pamela, that is so lovely. I think the music is really such soothing and healing to the ear and body.

      Have a beautiful Christmas x

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  19. Hello Vanessa,

    your words and pictures touched me very deeply, and I know those moments, too...
    Concerning th people who have passed... I think they are still around us in some way, and maybe they are even able to "perceive" the world better than we can with our body... Love keeps us all together...
    I´ve read that your blog is saying goodbye, which I find very sad. I´ve always liked to read here; it´s a warm and friendly place, that you have created here - thank you!
    I´m wishing all the best for you and your family...

    Blessed be,

    Tina

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    1. Thank you Tina. Yes I think you are so right about the people that have passed. And they forever live on in us. x

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  20. Dear Vanessa, I truly agree with your words... We are blessed to live in this world. I read some place that the key to real happiness is thankfulness. It is really true, I think. But sometimes it is hard, and sometimes we forget that.
    Love from Ida

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    1. Yes I think it is true isn't it? Sometimes we are so caught up in the everyday, we just forget to stop and see all the beauty and wonder around us. Have a beautiful Christmas Ida x

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  21. Hello Vanessa,
    just red your lovely post and it just felt so real and beautiful, so thank you for it. This time of the year does bring a lot of sadness as well as happiness, so it's only natural we need to remember our loved ones and then celebrate tho joy of life :)
    Love Renata x

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  22. Lovely post. Since my cancer diagnosis these "stop-in-time" moments are really special to me. Sitting on my sun porch early in the morning, getting myself together for the day has become a special time for me to just reflect on how lucky I really am. I understand exactly what you are saying. Thank you for all the lovely crochet. As a loyal follower I look forward to seeing what you post next. Thank you for sharing your lovely words.
    ~Crystal

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    1. Hi Crystal,
      Thank you for your comment. I do hope that treatment for you is going well. Sending much love and positive vibes. It's amazing isn't it, to have these moments to remind us of the greater picture of how wonderful the world is. Sometimes we just get so consumed with our little daily circles, we forget how lovely our planet is, and what a privilege it is to be a part of it. Xxxx

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  23. well said. very well said. SO well said that I do believe just reading your post about your moment became a moment for myself. thanks so much for sharing.

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    1. Thank you Michelle! Do you know, when I think back to this moment, I instantly feel those feelings again. It makes me shaky with a feeling of awe. It's weird how things like that can make you feel xxx

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  24. This is so very beautiful - What special words - I feel just what you say here. You have such beautiful creations on your blog. Very Best Wishes to you.
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    1. Thank you for your kind words Amelia. It was a very magical moment I felt, and even when I think back on it now, it fills me such a warmth and glow inside to have been able to have experienced it. X

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