I was driving very early this morning. It wasn't a usual thing for me to do, and the morning still felt like it hadn't quite risen from its slumber.
I have been listening all week to Ludovico Einaudi's 'Elements' album. I ADORE strings and Piano and I was playing 'Night' in the car. It seemed so fitting of the surroundings at that very moment.
Do you ever get it, when all things come together to reach one point; that you know is a significant moment to you? I'm not really so sure I can eloquently express this very well, as it's more a feeling than any spoken word can describe.
Anyway, driving through the countryside still so sleepy, with a hint of the sunrise....it felt quite ethereal. But mostly, I just felt this overwhelming surge of utter privilege. To have all my senses upon me. To be able to witness the sunrise and the sunset. To be able to feel the chill on my hands, and the sun on my face. To have the love stare back at me though my children's eyes. To breathe the morning air, sit quietly on a bench and watch the world go by, jump and sing like a loon in my house, run on a beach, cry at a sad film, watch deer jump through fields. I just felt what an awesome gift to have.
I think I have been thinking a lot this past week of people in my life who have passed. I miss them, and I miss that they don't get to see these moments that I see and feel. We forget sometimes in the hustle and bustle of life, just what we have, just how spectacular it all is.....and just what a privilege it is.